Something has got me in a mood today. I am really wound up. I think it's the contents of my inbox. I just read certain things and it's just like, you cannot be serious! Are some people really that stupid? Or just delusional? I don't know. Anyway, if anyone gets on the wrong side of me today they are going to get the rant that I am holding back!
Yesterday, someone (whose name I am not revealing because of the crazy involved) sent me an email that Cara has pictures of the kids on her myspace page under the heading "my older kids". Yeah, you don't HAVE older kids. You gave birth to them, neglected them for a few years and then gave them away. Now, I don't think she reads this, but if she does, good, she can see this. I wasn't mad or anything, more annoyed than anything else. I told Alyssa and she said, and I quote, "Oh my god! Freak much? We're not her kids!" Those were Alyssa's words. She wanted to see what pictures she had up. We showed her, she said "I don't even remember some of those pictures. Ew!" Brandon's response was "WHAT!? That's creepy." So, even the kids are not thrilled with this.
So I sent her an email telling her that I did not appreciate it very much. The kids thought it was weird and I was no longer going to keep in contact with her or send her pictures since this is what she is doing. She responds basically by saying that I need to accept that they are her kids. No sweetie, you need to accept that they are my kids. She said something about them making a decision when they are adults. Um, do you seriously think they are going to come back to you as adults? Yes, I think they will want to see her and talk to her. But I know they are not going to decide I am not their mother and she is.
She is under the delusion that we are providing for them materially but she is their mother. Right. That's what it is. They just live in our house and we give them stuff but they are sitting there pining away for their "real" mother. Brandon has some issues as far as that, but Alyssa does not consider her a mother at all. Or if she does she is really, really good at lying about it. Aly thinks she's crazy.
She thinks she did me some favor and if it wasn't for her I wouldn't even have kids! I don't have my own kids because of her. Two emotionally traumatized children was all I could handle so I chose not to have any of my own!
I know Kate will tell me not to respond. I just don't know if I can do that. Sometimes you jsut have to tell people when they are just really insane!
