Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wish

I am in a mood all of the sudden. I have no idea why. Maybe from being overly tired, but normally just tired on its own I can stand. It's not the time for my pms so I know it isn't that. I have no good reason to be in a mood so I should just stop it.

I was feeling kind of miserable on my way home this afternoon. I wanted to take a nap but then I had to make sure Brandon got ready for karate and I called Karen to see about car pooling so by the time I was done with all of that I really didn't have time. I called my grandmother, which is always fun. I talked to Lisa for a little bit. She got home yesterday. I think I need to talk to Lisa. I have stuff I need to tell someone and I think I can tell her. Maybe. I hope.

Anyway, I made a couple of phone calls and then got annoyed and may have just sent an email I shouldn't have sent. But I'll deal with that later. I think my problem is that right now I feel like talking to someone and everyone is busy and I hate that. I can't even talk to Rob because he went to get Brandon from karate. So I am not in the mood to be alone (which is rare) and I am totally alone.

And no idea on the song choice. That's what popped into my head. It was the last song I was listening to in the car earlier. I am thinking I should send an apology email as a follow up to the one I just sent. Dammit.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Right Where it Belongs

Wow! I haven't posted for a month?! But it's definitely a month that has flown by, not sure where it went. As usual for summertime, I have not been sleeping worth crap. I am tired all day, sleep for a few hours and then wake up around 3 am and am done. It totally sucks. Whatever, I am starting to get used to it.

So Beth and I went to the reunion on June 30. I meant to write about that. It was fine. We decided we are done with them though. I definitely left there thinking "damn, I look good". Most people just did not age very well. I got a good laugh out of a couple of people who were just such bitches in high school and now they are fat and look as old as my mother. That's fun. Laughed at some people's husband too. Very mature, I know. But yeah, done with reunions, when it can make me that catty...

I came back from Florida a couple of days ago. Went on Friday, Stacy, Cynth and I went to Pleasure Island and "danced our asses off"-that's what Stacy said we were going to do, and we did. It was fun. I got sick from one too many drinks but it wasn't horrible. Just one of those things where my stomach said "yeah, don't think so" and then it was done. Saturday we were just lazy and wound up going to bed at 11. Too old for two nights of partying.

On Sunday I went to Stacy's and hung out there for a couple of days. It was relaxing even though Zander is so bad he makes Brandon look good. But he's not my problem so it was a little entertaining. Stacy thinks it's "normal five year old behavior" and I know the two of us are equally stubborn and would wind up in an argument so I didn't say anything, but it is SO not normal. He's easily as defiant as Brandon was at that age and it will not get better. I made the comment to her that I thought he was a little oppositional and the "normal" response was what I got so I let it go. Maybe she is right, it remains to be seen. I was teasing her and told her it was karma for Vic commenting on how wild Brandon was when we were down there when he was 3. Zander was wilder at 3 too. Brandon never tried to spin on the ceiling fan.

There is other stuff going on too that I am not willing to post in public. It's completely crazy and not something I could ever have predicted. But right now it is awesome and I am really happy about it. I hope it continues, we'll see.

Alyssa spent two weeks with Roseann and as soon as she came home I wanted to choke her. She convinced Roe that it would be ok to buy a string bikini. Yeah, not so much...we took it away from her. She's completely nuts. She was home for two weeks and Thursday Maribeth came and got her because all Marissa wanted for her birthday was to have Aly stay there for a week. Cool with me. Anytime I can have just one kid, it's awesome. I am sure Stephen is loving having five. Haha, I can laugh at him next week when we go see Morrissey.

Since Aly wasn't home Brandon went to work with me and I took him to see Harry Potter. Brandon and I get along great when it is just the two of us. Karen and Robert were with us, which was good because he and Robert played games and were on the computer while I was working, but we went shopping for Emma's present and he barely complained, which is a lot for him. I am sure Aly will be mad that we went to the movies when she wasn't home but I don't see why he should have to wait a week for her to come home to see Harry Potter. We have always gone on opening weekend and I don't think it should be any different just because she decided to stay with Riss for a week.

I am so not tired right now. I was hoping this would help but it's not. I don't really know why it would because it hasn't lately. Well, writing...I've been doing emails. Came back on here because I realized I am doing the summertime spamming thing again. I guess that is about all. Summer is flying by. I can't believe July is half over! I am not looking forward to September. Well, maybe one thing, but overall not.

Oh yeah! And we saw Duran again on Father's Day. It was a fan club members only show. Beth and Sheri joined to get the tickets. Beth, Sheri, Lisa, Heather and I went, it was in NYC. We had fun, just because we always do, but it was not the best show I have seen them do. Overall the setlist was completely uninspired. I have no idea why they did Hungry Like the Wolf at a fan club members only show. Hello! No one wants to hear that! The set lists on the reunion shows were way better. And of all things, they didn't do Careless Memories, which, how the hell do you not do that!? I have never seen them do a show and not do that. It rules.

On my birthday we (as in same as who went to the concert) went to brunch. That was nice. Beth gave me a CD box set from my Amazon wish list, Heather gave me remastered Songs of Faith and Devotion-which I totally have to watch the DVD that is with it, Lisa gave me a pair of earrings and Sheri gave me two books from my wish list and a necklace. Plus they paid for my brunch. Other than that my birthday was completely uneventful. Mom and Mark gave me cash which I used for my trip last week.

Mom and Mark are moving again. I don't think I have mentioned that. They already bought the new house but their house has not sold yet. I am sure it will but now is not the time to be selling. Some country singer was going to buy it but she can't make a decision or something and has still not signed the papers. She's on my mother's last nerve. She keeps calling and saying she wants to buy it. Last I heard she "needed to talk to my mom to see how she felt about it". WTF?

And finally, when I was at Stacy's we had a chat about Lisa. I realized that I really miss her. She and Stacy and I were more like sisters than cousins. But Lisa and I spent a lot of time together growing up and we were really close, closer than Stacy and I, mostly because she was here and Stacy was in Florida, but I miss Lisa. She is really the only person I know who you can tell absolutely anything at all to and she will listen and never judge. She won't even give an opinion unless you ask her to. She'll ask you questions about it, but I never feel like she is judging. Maybe she should have been a therapist. Yeah, right! I have not talked to her since March. I sent her an email from Stacy's telling her that I missed her and that I know she thinks "no one understands" but she has not even talked to me and given me a chance to understand. Then Thursday my mom told me she is coming home. Aunt Linda was sending her a ticket yesterday and it is a three day bus trip. So she should be home by the end of next week. Which would be good. I know Rob is going to be mad if I want to go spend some time with her, but he'll get glad again. I want to know what she is thinking with all this craziness (I said she was not judgmental-I didn't say I wasn't) and find out what she has been doing for the past six months! The last time I actually saw her was in February when our grandmother was in the hospital.

Now it's 5 and I am still not tired. But I guess I should try again anyway.